|153.6 :( But at least we have a cute picture from a great time at the Dallas World Aquarium!|
I'd been exclusively breastfeeding my son since he was born, but he's started eating cereal and baby food, so guess what? The verdict is in: I have to lose half of my nursing WW points. Instead of the 14 extra points I have been getting for the past 21 weeks, I go down to 7 extra points a day. This is going to be the first real big challenge for me while on Weight Watchers, and I'm not too excited about it. Maybe I'll start losing weight faster, and maybe I'll not make the adjustment and gain again next week. I'm nervous, because I was ALMOST to losing 30 pounds and ALMOST back to pre-Brooklyn-pregnancy weight, but I haven't hit it yet and it makes me kind of anxious that I didn't quite get there. Honestly, I'm feeling down, like this is the end and I'm not going to lose any more.
Also, I've noticed that I'm losing my focus on just becoming healthier. I have been eating less fruits and vegetables and so just eating less of the crap that I love to eat in order to stay close to my points goals. I'm starting to doubt my self-image, despite how many people are telling me that I look good. For the past 5 months, I've been saying, "Hey- I am getting better!", and "Look, no back fat!" and stuff like that, and now I look in the mirror and just think, "Uggh. You're gross", and that's not right. But this stupid society we live in says so, and the devil looooooooves to get us where we're weakest, like self-esteem and how women value themselves, or rather, don't.
So that's me in a nutshell.
Help! Help! I'm in a nutshell! How did I get in here? How is there a nutshell that is so big?
I watched Austin Powers the other night.
I'll check in again next week.