Friday, July 19, 2013

Week 21 Weigh-In!

Last week I weighed in at 152.6, and this week...
153.6 :( But at least we have a cute picture from a great time at the Dallas World Aquarium!
Yep, I gained a pound. Talk about bummed. Summertime is hard.

I'd been exclusively breastfeeding my son since he was born, but he's started eating cereal and baby food, so guess what? The verdict is in: I have to lose half of my nursing WW points. Instead of the 14 extra points I have been getting for the past 21 weeks, I go down to 7 extra points a day. This is going to be the first real big challenge for me while on Weight Watchers, and I'm not too excited about it. Maybe I'll start losing weight faster, and maybe I'll not make the adjustment and gain again next week. I'm nervous, because I was ALMOST to losing 30 pounds and ALMOST back to pre-Brooklyn-pregnancy weight, but I haven't hit it yet and it makes me kind of anxious that I didn't quite get there. Honestly, I'm feeling down, like this is the end and I'm not going to lose any more.

Also, I've noticed that I'm losing my focus on just becoming healthier. I have been eating less fruits and vegetables and so just eating less of the crap that I love to eat in order to stay close to my points goals. I'm starting to doubt my self-image, despite how many people are telling me that I look good. For the past 5 months, I've been saying, "Hey- I am getting better!", and "Look, no back fat!" and stuff like that, and now I look in the mirror and just think, "Uggh. You're gross", and that's not right. But this stupid society we live in says so, and the devil looooooooves to get us where we're weakest, like self-esteem and how women value themselves, or rather, don't.

So that's me in a nutshell.

Help! Help! I'm in a nutshell! How did I get in here? How is there a nutshell that is so big?

I watched Austin Powers the other night.

I'll check in again next week.

3 comments:

  1. You are doing awesome!! I'm sure once school starts, too, you'll get in a routine. That was always good for me after summer. (And I'm pretty positive Sam's cinnamon rolls didn't help any of us this week either -- LOL!) Keep it up!! :)

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  2. I agree with Wendi - you are doing so well. It is 100% normal to stall out from time to time. Easier said than done but try to not let one week defeat you or get you down (that is Satan talking to you and making you feel bad!).

    You know my story so I won't write a lot here. . . but YES our society and media puts so much emphasis on how we look, the size of our jeans, etc etc etc and it is just SICKENING. And if we are not careful this negative impact can creep into all of our heads and start to fester and impact our daily decisions and mindsets. UGH. I'm not sure where I am going with this, but on your hard days or when you are down about your progress or lack there of, just try to remember that you were made in God's image (not the image of Hollywood or air brushed model). And God does NOT make mistakes. You're doing awesome!!!!

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  3. Tracey,

    I've told you this before, and I'll tell you again, you are so inspiring. Not because you are losing weight, but because you want to be healthy. Chris and I have recently started trying to be healthier and it is NOT easy. Eating junk food, fast food, anything like that tastes better than fruits and veggies all the time. Keep it up! And if you gain another this week, just remember that your most important part of who you are is a child of God, a mother to your babies, and wife to Brandon--who all love you anyway!

    Also, I'm sure it will get better when school starts. Without working out (or even eating super healthy) lost weight this last year just from being up and walking ALL the time.

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