I'm not usually one to post political thoughts. Today I'll make an exception.
I have 1 refill left on my anxiety medication. My pharmacy won't fill it. Not unless I want to pay full price ($174.00) Why? Because my insurance has told them not to. Without warning me, they have decided I have to order it through the mail. Oh, and I need to make sure I have a 14 day supply on hand before I do so. Thanks for letting me know. I've got 2 days.
I call the insurance company. Order through the mail, they say, and it'll save me $60 in the long run every 3 months, which totals a savings of $240 a year. Sure- that's great news! Let's do that!
Hold it, they say. You need your doctor to call in a 90-day supply before you can get it. I can't get it one month at a time? No, 3 months at a time. Oh, okay. But you can go ahead and send me my one refill that I have remaining, right?
Let me ask that again. I have a prescription that a medical doctor has prescribed for me, and I have one remaining refill that will just disappear? I cannot ever get it filled? How is that possible? How is that fair?
This is my life. I am humble enough to admit that I don't function well if I'm not on my medicine. I just don't. I have fits of rage, I cry, I can't control my emotions. I freak out, I stress out, I don't sleep. And just taking 1/2 a little pill each day helps all those crazy chemicals stay balanced so I can run my life.
But you don't care, do you? Nope. You want me to buy into your 90-day prescription service. Wouldn't be that big a deal except...
Do you realize how difficult it is to get an appointment with a psychologist/psychiatrist??? There are so few of them that when I called to get a consultation two days ago, the receptionist told me the first opening was at the end of March 2012! How am I supposed to wait that long while literally tearing my hair out the entire time?
Luckily we found a loophole in the system which will allow me to see my regular doctor and the psychologist at the same time. Now I only have to wait ONE MONTH before discussing medication.
I'm so pissed right now. I have medicine that is owed to me, and our healthcare system won't let me have it. Not without a doctor providing a NEW prescription refill. Why isn't the old one good enough? Just because it's good for 30 days and not 90. I'm sorry, but that reasoning just isn't good enough for me.
I'm a big believer in medication. I may be one of the few, but I love seeing how God and science work together. I know you don't have to choose between medicine and prayer. But the choice was just made for me. I have no medicine. All I have is prayer.
So, with all my heart, I ask that you pray for me that I don't absolutely lose my mind over the next month. If I snap at you, I apologize. If I don't show up for parties, try to understand that I am feeling depressed and may just need to stay home. If I burst out crying for no reason, just hug me. Don't ask me what's wrong, because I won't be able to explain it.
Anyone out there still think our healthcare system doesn't need reformation???