Saturday, September 10, 2011

I am UNcool.

Today while driving my sea green Mazda MPV minivan complete with "Baby on Board" decal and Winnie the Pooh window shade, I was passed rather aggressively by a large Dodge truck with wheels taller than me, a V12 engine and a teenage boy with bones on his steering wheel. I looked at my speedometer and thought to myself, "Hmm. I'm actually going 2 over the speed limit." My next thought was, "Wow. I am UNcool."

This, as we all know, is actually a false statement, but at first glance we can all tell who the "cool" kids are. When I was in school they all wore short shorts and Abercrombie and Fitch. Hard to tell what the high schoolers do now to look cool- I taught at a hick school where it was cool to wear belt buckles and boots, so...

I always hated the word "popular" growing up. The word "popular" means basically something that a lot of people like. In high school, "popular" means someone who is good-looking, takes a long time to do their hair in the morning, wears expensive clothes, and is probably mean to people because they think themselves holier than thou.

I was not "popular". I was not cool. I had a mushroom haircut until I was in 4th grade and looked like a boy. I wore jeans and thrift store t-shirts because they were old and more comfortable than the new things you could buy in the store. I wore PJ's to school on multiple occasions and only wore makeup if I remembered. No big deal.

I've always said I don't care about what people think, but I do. I want people to think I'm a good person. I want people to like me. But I won't do anything to be liked; I won't change who I am to please you. So I guess this makes me uncool; this makes me unpopular.

My little brother is the most popular person I know. Is he mean and condescending? No. Does he wear fancy clothes? No. But he has won "Mr. Friendly" at camp so many summers that his youth minister joked that they should change the title to the "Kirby Allen" award. I would love to win that one. Kirby is the most popular guy I know because he is genuine and he loves people. He wants everyone to be happy and feel good about themselves. He puts himself out there for others and often doesn't leave enough to take care of himself. He is my example of Jesus. He is my hero. And I don't know anyone who doesn't love him. THAT'S popular.

It's okay to be "unpopular" and "uncool". Those are just random standards that tweenagers make up to make each other feel bad. There's someone out there who knows you extremely well and loves you anyway. Despite what you've done, despite who you are, you're cool to God because he made you.

"You make everything glorious, and I am yours. What does that make me?" -David Crowder

So for all of you who feel uncool, who feel ugly, who feel like outcasts or misfits, know that God is the King, and as His child, that makes you Princes and Princesses- those who will inherit the kingdom. You are treasured and cherished and loved.

I was watching Veggietales the other day with Brooklyn and realized this exact message through a Dr. Seuss-like version of Cinderella called "Snoodlerella". She thinks she's ugly with glasses, braces, wild hair, etc. She gets a makeover so she can go to the ball, but realizes that she can't see her own beauty. The King dances with her and says,

"I think you're beautiful. I treasure you deeply. You are lovely my child. I think you are beautiful. You hair and your braces. Your glasses and clothes and cumbersome graces. And many more traits that I could speak of. There's nothing about you I don't truly love. You're kind and you're honest. You're funny and smart. You're really quite charming. You have a good heart. Of course it is true, every word that I say. Daughter, I am the King and I made you that way. I delight in your beauty. You're wonderfully made. I knew you before this Earth's foundation was laid. You're precious to me, every hair on your head. Daughter, hear and believe what I have said."

Makes me feel good. And beautiful. And cool.

Snoodlerella, daughter of the King :)

1 comment:

  1. Hey, its ashley marin I wanted to say I have been reading every one of your blogs and very much enjoy them!!